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I’m selfish. See, I love my girlfriend. She’s great! She loves me, cares for me and makes me happy. What I don’t get and always ask myself is why do I get jealous of everything? Hey, I trust her. In fact, I’m the one with the bad record. So I dunno why I’m like this with her. WAAA I dunno! Maybe I am just that scared to lose her. Maybe I am just THAT selfish.
The things I get jealous of are not even like real ‘threats’ to our relationship. They’re not boys so I don’t know why. Hmm.. well, there IS one boy but she’s assured me a million times about that. The other things I get jealous of? Well, there’s: her girlfriends - all of them ( I like her friends, I’m friends with them too. I just don’t wanna share her attention with them), her ‘boy’friends - well, she has a LOT of friends, and of course you can’t avoid her having boy friends because she is friendly. I know I can’t tell her to stop being friendly ‘cause that would be just wrong..other things I won’t go into detail anymore.
I know I can’t change her to my liking and I shouldn’t. Maybe because I feel she’s the one..that’s why everything is hard for me when I’m not holding her hand. Well, it’s me that needs to change. I need to trust her fully and man up. I mean, I love her so much..but I think it is what it is. I’m selfish.
